*NATIONAL BESTSELLER**An Autostraddle Most Anticipated Queer Book*"I'm determined to get to know the real Tommy, to trace the shape of my scars."For years, Tommy Dorfman turned her back on her thoughts and emotions, hoping they'd simply go away.After a lifetime of confusion, she finally gained clarity around her gender and began to transition.But there were still parts of herself she'd locked away, elements of her story that she needed, for the first time, to fully confront.She sought guidance in a tarot deck.Maybe This Will Save Me is Tommy's story, told the cards of that tarot pull. For the first time, she opens up about: growing up the youngest of five children while grappling with her identity the turbulent she spent as a teenager, numbed by drugs and alcohol her early aspirations of stardom and the hard fought path she forged to get there the long night that led her to finally seek treatment for addiction her breakout role in 13 Reason Why the relationships that shaped herMaybe This Will Save Me is a luminously written, bracingly honest, and structurally audacious memoir of an artist whose vision transcends mediums.