At the age of 11, I suddenly lost my mother to a Pulmonary Embolism, I saw her pass. My father passed 9 years later when I was 21, he again passed suddenly while I was at work, by the time my brother and I got to the hospital he was gone. My one sister had a seizure, she had one after another, they put her in a Coma for three months, she had been given the last rights, but thank God she survived. Still today she has seizures and can't go out without her husband. My oldest brother, the closest thing I had to my father got emphysema, he suffered for over 3 years, he could not lay down for two years, he passed after a long fight. In 2003 when I was 47, I had a Massive Heart Attack, they call it the Widow maker, I had a Balloon in my heart for 5 days. Five Months later after going to Cardiac rehab on Saturday November 1st, All saint's day, I retuned home Finding my Son Phillip unresponsive, I tried CPR until the EMT arrived, but to no avail. The worst day of my life. In 2010 I had a second Heart Attack and got Prostate Cancer and required my Prostate to be removed, this was another challenging year. I lost my oldest sister in 2019, She was 81 years old. The reason I tell you all this, is that you need to have faith in GOD, push thru the pain by Leaning on GOD and family for your strength, find a Church, I have been led by God to the Journey Within Church and the founder Janet Nohavec, who I credit with saving my life. So, let God guide you thru.