Alternate coverHudsonI thought I was living the dream-captain of my NHL team, married to a model, planning to finally become a dad-the last thing I was expecting was to be served divorce papers.All the plans I'd been making, all the ideas of what our family would look like, gone, just like that. Thank God for Adrian, he always knows what to do. My ex kicked me out and Adrian offered to let me stay in his spare room while I figure out what comes next. My future hasn't felt this uncertain since I entered the draft, but with Adrian offering to help, I feel like I can breathe again, like the unknown might not be the worst thing after all. Adrian Living with the perfect man is a cruel and unusual sort of torture. Hudson walks around half-naked all the time, showing off his perfect hockey body, it's obscene. And then there's the teasing. It isn't new, but I'd assumed he would stop now that we're roommates and there's no one else around. He hasn't. He's straight, and I don't know how much more platonic flirting my little gay heart can take.I know that our time together is limited. Hudson wants to be a dad more than anything, and he deserves the family he's always wanted, the future he'd dreamed of. I know that future won't include me, and I want Hudson to be happy. Even if that means giving up our time together, helping him move on. He was never mine, so why does the thought of saying goodbye feel like it might break me? I'm screwed.