This is a gut wrenching true story which chronicles my life and the horrid events which are my reality including murder and suicide. Although this is my life, I won't let trauma define me. I have an unwavering will to grow and thrive. My story is told first hand from inside the darkness that is my life. Journey through my mind as I claw my way out of this hell. My life has been mind blowing since birth and I don't know that I'll ever get out of the darkness completely but I'm always working hard to move forward. You're not alone. Don't give up. Life can be beautiful. VIEWER DISCRETION IS ADVISEDThis book contains violence, drug use, abuse, rape, murder, suicide, mental illness, and more. PART 1 OF 2