"Hi, baby," I managed between sobs. "It's okay, I'm okay." "Look at what you're doing to her!" Ryan screamed in my direction, pointing towards Lily's frozen body. "Look at what you're showing her! You're ruining her! You're ruining her childhood by being like this! Do you really want her to see this kind of stuff? You did this! Look at what you did!" I bawled as I looked down at my blood-soaked hands, listening to the horrible truths coming out of Ryan's mouth. What have I done? I thought. What have I done?